Life has been so large lately. This morning I was looking back to this time in my life a couple years ago. We were at a cross-road which left us selling our home we had built ourselves. I was leaving behind my chickens, my raspberries that were doing so well, my garden, my orchard and so much that we had worked so hard to build. It was a valley in my life but this morning I can honestly say I survived. ( I still really miss my chickens the most.)
I decided to re-post this devotion just to remind myself that hard times will come into our lives but God has carried me safe this far and one day He will carry me home. I am so thankful that my security is in the fact that Christ lives in me.
I think spring has finally arrived at Farming On Faith. Oh, my stars~ I thought it might never get here.
I have this saying written on my chalkboard on the porch in hopes it really is true!
No Winter lasts forever ~
No Spring skips her turn.
This morning as I sit on my deck listening to all the glory of a beautiful spring day I am having my devotions with Emilie Barnes. I raised my family on Emilie's books. I just love her! I am reading her devotion called
Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
I have to remind myself of this because we are in the process of selling our home and moving back to town. Have I ever told you I would rather do anything except move? It gives me horrible nightmares and keeps me awake at night! So I am just having the hardest time being content in this state~ that I hate.
We have been looking for a home for about a year and that has not gone so great either but I just want to get where I am going. I hate being stuck in the middle and I need my roots to take hold somewhere~ anywhere.
Emilie states~ "We don't happen to live in a society that puts a lid on anything, let alone our desires. As a capitalistic and consuming society, we strive upward to the next level of prosperity; bigger apartments or houses, luxury cars, the next raise, fancier vacations, and more expensive toys. The echo of our success says that our happiness depends on processions that show those around us that we have succeeded in the business world."
In and of themselves, there is not a thing wrong with owning things. But to love them so much we are not willing to give them up makes them a little god. I never thought we would be asked to give up our retirement home but that is exactly what God has asked us to do.
My husband has been called to a job that impacts way more lives than just ours. So ~ we are selling and obeying the call that God has called my husband to do.
The part I am struggling with is the process. Sigh..... I have been here before!
Paul is telling us in this verse above to have contentment in today ~ right now~ not the desires for the future. I have been here before and I really didn't pass the test with flying colors. In fact ~ if I were to give myself a grade it would be more like I verily passed by the seat of my pants. I want to pass the test this time with faith~ and grace.
So today I am focusing on just living in the moment for today and being content even without my roots being planted.