I have prayed and prayed for God to answer a certain prayer. I have been praying for many years. I look at the blessings that would come from this certain situation. It would be a huge thing in my life. Recently, I thought that God was going to answer my prayer and give me my heart's desire. I could see how God could work it all out. It even got close enough that I started making plans. I had it all figured out and God had been working in mighty ways in our lives and even answering the impossible in ways we couldn't even imagine. I mean we had trusted and obeyed.
The only thing is when it came right down to the wire God chose to say “no” to me. Did you get that? He said “no” to me! And it was so close. It would have been so easy for Him to work it out. The deck had been stacked in His favor. He only needed to make it happen. Even while I peck at these keys, I see how foolish I sound.
When He said “no” to me I threw a fit. I even cried tears. I told God just how angry I was with Him. I reminded Him how easy it would have been to give me my heart's desire. I was so mad and I wanted to stay mad. I fussed and grumbled and had a bad attitude for several days. But gently the Lord began to soften my hard heart and I confessed the sin of not accepting the Lord's will in the situation.
I have been praying and studying God’s Word and He has gently impressed on me that it would just not have been the right timing for Him to have answered this prayer in my life. He knows best and even when I have a hard time trusting Him, I still can.
“God never withholds from His child that which His love and wisdom call good. God’s refusals are always merciful- ‘severe mercies’ at times but mercies all the same. God never denies us our hearts desires except to give us something better.” Elisabeth Elliot